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"I saw the pain and I turned my back...

I am willing but I am so afraid...

I wanna be your hands, I wanna be your feet

I'll go where you send me"

"Do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened." But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander.

1 Peter 3:14-16

God, we both know I've never been great at talking about important things. I'm not even great at making small talk. So, we also both know that I haven't done a lot of witnessing in my life. I've tried, but I always come up short it feels like. I feel like I sound awkward and contrived and not real like I want to be. I want people to know how real you are. I'm just so afraid of sounding stupid, God. And I've heard it said that you will never look stupid but... well, I've been there when I've messed everything up. I've seen it happen. I just don't know how to be better. I don't know how to get there. Will you help me? Lord, help me to feel your reassurance in this. Remind me that you are with me always and you will give me the words once I let go. Maybe that's my problem; I don't let go. Lord, I ask that you help me to let go of myself. Help me to die to my own fears and live for you unconditionally. Help me to be your hands and feet. I don't want to be wrapped up in me anymore. I'm going to do this for you.